Late Nights in Atlantic City

Well, I think I might have got my sleep schedule on track today. I went to bed at like 2:30 a.m. but I woke up at 7:30 a.m. and have been up since and don't really feel tired. The problem is, I'm going to Atlantic City tonight. That's actually two problems in one. First, it's going to screw up my sleep schedule again. Second, I can't really afford to lose any money this weekend.

I'm worried about my Grandma Gladys. She fell down the steps a few months ago and hasn't been the same since. It's to the point where I'm almost afraid to leave the house when nobody else is around. But I also don't want to be here if something happens. I don't know if I could stomach it. My cousin tells me it was horrible to see her lying there at the bottom of the steps...and I don't want to experience that feeling.

I started reading the book "Choke" by Chuck Palahniuk. It seems pretty good so far but I'm also a little disappointed. Sometimes it seems like he's cursing just to curse. Maybe not. I'm only 20 pages in so I can't really judge yet.

School starts Monday, and although I want to get back into the swing of things, I also dread getting back to the daily grind, not being able to live life the way I truly want. Sometimes I'll be awake and sitting around and I just don't feel like going to class. That's bad. Other times I just can't find a way to wake up for it. This semester I'm going to try to have perfect attendance.

I've also decided that I want to stop drinking soda. I consume way too much of it. So I'm cutting it out of my life completely for the next month and then going from there.

It may seem stupid. I mean, it's not like soda is very addictive, though it does have caffeine. But it's actually sort of hard to stop drinking. I feel like I have a habitual addiction, finding myself opening soda cans even though I honestly don't even want a soda. Then once it's open, I just figure I might as well drink it. Maybe it's all the caffeine that's been keeping me up at night. I don't know.